Bring Fyrst Home

I just watched dateline,it was about David Goldman fighting to bring his son Shawn home from Brazil.Shawns mother fled to her home country of Brazil when Shawn was a baby, remarried but passed away suddenly during the birth of her second child.Her Brazilian husband refused to allow David(Shawns biological father) to go home and live with his father.I could barely keep it together during the 2 hour program.

Every second of every minute of every hour of every day David said his heart was broken as long as he and Shawn werte apart,I feel every emotion David felt.It took ten years for David to get his son back I can only imagine the feeling David had when the day arrived but watching him talk about it chockoed me up.At one point David dateline showed an earlier interview with David Goldman and he said I will never give up on my son and again I could feel what David felt when he spoke those words.

It took almost ten years for David and Shawn to be together again and they were reunited for the holiday.David talked about how he waited so long to hear Shawn say Daddy I love you  and I felt his heart again.Such a small phrase that holds the world in it's meaning.I have so many of the same questions David had like will Fyrst still love me?,will Fyrst remember me?,is he going to be angry? I dont know the answers to those questions but I know I will never give up on my son.

 Sometime I feel like Im alone and no one can imagine how I feel and at times it's true.So many men that have children are not involved with the child at all,they never see there child even though he or she lives just blocks away or they promise to come see them and never show,if that father could feel the absense I feel everyday they would change how they treat their children.My ex knows my health situation and could care less if I passed away and Fyrst never saw me again that way he would never know that I never abandoned him and I loved him more than I can describe,how can a mother be so cruel.Gennifer should imagine how she would have felt if her father passed trying to find her just to tell her he loved her but because of another persons hate he never gotthe chance,how would she feel!

Truth Hurts and Cuts Deep

The funniest thing was on my blog today,there are two comments from my ex (Gennifer Serafin) on the myspace blog I write on now and then.Seems Gennifer took issue with the video I posted about parental alienation so she had to resort to her childish name calling and delusions she has tricked herself into believing.Everything that I have learned about parental alienation Gennifer is the perfect poster child for such abuse.The video is of a talk show that doctors and clinical as well as child psychologist appear on to educate the uninformed about parental alienation and the affects it has on children.Judging by Gennifer's reaction she see's that her actions are that of a parent that's committing this type of abuse,why else would she resort back to her tiny childlike name calling?

When I started to blog about my son Fyrst being hidden from me Gennifer responded with name calling childish behavior saying that she was protecting Fyrst and writing he has everything he needs in his life.The last comments actually said I abandoned my son...oh and by the way his name is no longer Fyrst(first) the name I gave him now he wants to be called Tony after her boyfriend,Gennifer writing that Fyrst wants to be called the same name as her boyfriend is exactly what parental alienation is about.Mind you Gennifer has a son Marcos that saw his father maybe 5 times in his 12 years the last time was when Marcos was 1 and a 1/2 years old,but he doesn't want to be named after her boyfriend only my son does,too funny! So initialy Gennifer had to protect Fyrst now I abandoned my son,more like I left her and she stop allowing Fyrst to call.I called Fyrst at school until she switched his school,he was not allowed to give me his phone number or address so I offered to pay for a safe deposit box so I could write to Fyrst,I gave Fyrst my phone number,his aunts phone and his Pop Pops number and told Gennifer to call me with the post ofdfice number so I could pay for the PO Box and send Fyrst a calling card so he could call no charge to her and guess what Gennifer never called back nor has my son been allowed to call.Every step Gennifer takes is to try and erase me from Fyrst memory and even if she were successful Fyrst still has my bloodline,he is I and I am him forever.

I love watching Gennifer scramble to hurt my feelings after she reads the truth about herself.Gennifer wants so bad for people to see me as I bad person because I overcame a drug addiction however during my addiction Gennifer didn't work the bills were paid with my social security,the kids clothes were bought with my social security,Gennifer's contribution was food stamps.During my addiction we never goit evicted the way her and Tony did and then Gennifer hustled Grandma Isabelle for money by doing what she does best and thats tell lies.Gennifer seems to forget driving to the bad lands in Philadelphia to get heroin to sell,some for me to use and weed for her to smoke.I dont have a problem talking about my past because thats where I left it wiht her in the past!

Now its time for Gennifer to let Fyrst speak for himself,he's 11 years old now and according to Gennifer Fyrst wants this or says that but it always sounds like the hate of Gennifer A. Serafin.Hate because of her lack of happiness,lack of self esteem,Gennifer really thinks that writing I was a junkie or hoping that Im still a junkie hurts me to bad I out grew that childish nonsense long ago.One thing for sure I dont respond to the ignorance because it's a waste of energy nor is it true but she reacts to everything I write because it's the truth and truth hurts. I noticed that in her comments I could almost feel her smiling because hate is Gennifer's heroin and spreading hate gives Gennifer her fix,I could tell she really felt good writing the hate message she was writing.I trust in God that's why Im still living today( Isaiah 54:17 No weapons formed against me shall prosper) so no matter what I have the victory and darkness always comes to light.

The Power of Love Is...

I have written lots of things about my son Fyrst and how his mother has interfered in our relationship.To a point she has managed to keep me from being involved in my sons life and upbringing over the last 6 years but Gennifer underestimates the power of love.Im terminally ill as I said before so the time that Gennifer steals from me and my son makes what she's doing that much more cruel.

Last night I was watching television and I started to think of when I first started getting sick.As my disease took hold and my health got worse I spent all of my time sitting on the sofa because I was to weak to walk and when I would stand up I couldn't breath.At the time I had no idea fluid was filling my lungs causing my shortness of breathe.Fyrst was 2 years old at the time and had the brightest smile ever,I was reminded of how bright while watching the DVD my wife had made for me over the holiday.The video shows Fyrst as a little fellow just enjoying life and loving his daddy(me).Since I could no longer walk I would just stay onthe sofa wathching TV,consuming narcotics Gennifer would provide me with,and sleep.From the day Fyrst outgrew his crib he slept in the bed between me and his mother.Well when I started sleeping on the sofa because of my health I would wake up every night with Fyrst sleeping on my chest.He would go to bed with his mom but always and I meen always woke up to come in the living room and climb on my chest and sleep because he wanted to be with me .I had lost about 100 pounds and waking with Fyrst on my chest he felt super heavy but I didnt care,if sleeping on me made him feel safe then go right ahead Fyrst.

Gennifer has no idea that the only way I will stoptrying to see Fyrst is when Im put to rest.However I know that in 2010 with the help and support of my wife and family this will be the year Fyrst comes home.Gennifer writes the most vile,hateful,ignorant messages directed to me and my wife.How does a person claim to be thouhtful,loving,caring and continue to do everything possible to destry her childs life?When she was a child noone kept her from her father or anyone in her family.She knows all of her couisins and aunts all of her family members on her nother and fathers side but Fyrst doesn't deserve the same.My son has an entire side of him he's not allowed to see.Gennifer had no problem accepting money from my family for Fyrst and her other children that were not mine but I was raising so my family treated them as if they were mine.Her motivation is carved in hate and anger with a soul fed by darkness and its sad that Fyrst is made to suffer because of how her life turned out.

It Takes A Thief

Nobody likes a thief because thiefs violate peoples trust and that hurts.Thiefs steal money,cars,jewelry,some thiefs steal girlfriends or peoples identity,although it may be difficult but you can recover from these thefts. From where I sit the worst thief is the parent that steals the other parents time with his/her child.Time cant be replaced or recovered...if you miss your childs sixth,seventh,eigth birthday or his/her graduation or maybe its a time when your child really needed to see you just because that time cant be given back.The motivation for one parent to steal time from another is usually hate.The parent thief is so unhappy with how their life has turned out they blame the other parent and in order to get revenge he/she interferes with a childs right to have both parents in their life.
Once the battle lines have been drawn and the fight is on there is no way to get around hurting the child while trying to fight for your time.The theif parent tries to justify his/her position by filling the childs head with lies and this does damage that will affect that child for a lifetime and the theif tries to make the hurt thats caused your fault.The good thing is that darkness always comes to light but getting to that light wont be easy you will need the love and support of your family and most important God.My faith lets me know that even though time is being stolen from me justice will be done and like any other theif a penalty will be paid for the hurt and pain the theif has and continues to cause.Do onto others as you would have them do onto you,in other words since you choose to live in darkness and hate then you will remain in darkness alone with only you to blame.
Its apparent to me my ex has no idea of the lengths I will go to in order to see my son again.I know she fears me because she hides and has been for 6 years now.She has lots to say from a hidden seat at a computer but if she believed in herself she would have had me in court to show the world that what she writes is true but here fear of me rules her.When the day comes and she has to pay for the hurt she has caused no one will feel sorry for her because of the type of person she is and feels good being and thats a person without a soul who's only care is herself.

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The fear of losing

The more research I do the more educated I become about Gennifer Serafin's (my ex) state of mind and I fear for my sons well being much more than I ever have before.Gennifer is pathologically disturbed and her envy and rage toward me and my wife makes it clear to us that Gennifer is willing to do anything for revenge.Gennifer has already been sacrificing my son's mental health and well being by not allowing him any communication with his family.Fyrst turned 11 years old in October and Im sure as time passes he has questions that require an honest answer but Gennifer would have the world believe that Fyrst has no desire to know how his cousins,grandmother and father are doing.Gennifer wants the world to believe that the family members he went to visit with her and with me as a younger child have not crossed his mind at all in the last 6 years because he's so happy with just having her and her boyfriend be the only people who care about him.His Grand parents that were always so happy to see him and do things with him like going to see a movie with Pop Pop and his cousins or going shopping with his aunt Terri who always gave him big kisses or playing with her children and visiting his father's side of the family during the holiday's.None of these memories ever cross his mind they have become irrelevant since she found her new love her soulmate as she calls him.
Gennifer's desire to punish me by depriving me of my son relates to her fantasied greater success or luck in life.Since she saw the pictures I posted of me and my wifes wedding rings on our fingers she tells tales of her rewarding love relationship and how she suddenly graduated college,and has great friends and needs nothing more but her children that love her as if she's mother tereasa and cures all that hurts them,its disturbing to say the least but this story is only told by Gennifer and Gennifer alone.The last time I spoke to Fyrst she had him call as a ruse to ask me for money.Im thinking where is her soulmate and does he know that she's calling and asking me for money which he probably did they tried to extort money from my sister and told me a bogus story about wanting to get the kids bikes for Xmas and needing $250 until I exposed her plan at which point she flew into a rage.I told Gennifer I could pay for the bikes at the wal-mart in mt area and she could pick them up but NO WAY she wanted the money and called me every foul name you can imagine.
Gennifer claims she's raising a well rounded respectful young man,I guess she also teaches him never to forgive or have compassion.If Gennifer were teaching Fyrst forgiveness then we would not be in the situation were in.Me try to track her down so I can get her in court and remove her from interfering in my son's relationship with me and Gennifer only being seen on a computer screen afraid to face me as a woman and have the proper steps taken to resolve our differences.
Gennifer is old enough to understand that sometime relationships dont work out and people do things to hurt each other during a break up.Im not saying it's okay but you move on and you should not make your children go without a father because your full of rage and darkness 6 years later,her soulmate should be all she thinks about but instead she 's focused on keeping my son from me and hurting our son doing it.Gennifer hasn't learned forgiveness and she's certainly not teaching my son what it means.We all make mistakes;it's human.But when you hold strong to a grudge it eats away at your sense of peace and serenity.If you aren't willing to forgive you might ask yourself what habit of ego you're attached to.Do you want to continue life with unresolved issues hanging over you?
When we take a stand and refuse to let go of something we can always find evidence to justify it.Or we can try to make peace instead of blaming or making excuses,we can clean things up and move forward.Once we do that we gain freedom to move out of a stuck place.